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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

lifelinesI fear the sound of sparrows
and the density of leaves
against dew-muffled blades
of grass,

and I'm drowning
in the sky.

My skin has learned how
to peel itself off
without causing a commotion
in my marrows or
even show the slightest hint
of pain,
and my heart has learned how
to hush the stars in their wake
and keep it all a secret.

There's a sea in my mouth
and I can't swim.

There are lifelines
cast like these and it will
all end with the same tragedy.

of seafoam thronesFrom Atlas’ hands she wept to me,
atop Africas and South Atlantics;

this is one situation unaffected by
ember eyes and windy lashes
(it has no anatomy).

You are sparrows stranded
in tiny crevices and cliffside love,
though you rebuke flight
in the fear of chipping feathers.

So what do you do?

You reach for my soul,
coveting flight with shaking
dainty arms…

and perhaps I’ll let you:
With flytrap lips and
glass shaped hips…
you are unfit for anything but
sight.

(But beauty isn’t everything)

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

weight of the worldand suddenly--
it was like the world decided that
it didn't want to carry its burden any longer,
so it shifted the weight
into the hollows of my bones
and told me that
it was my problem now.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

A Charmed LifeDoll-faced men and sinkholes, ancient tombstones
Leaves piled ankle-deep, falling down
Old wells, old graves, old friends lost
Pirate adventures in Neverland
Don't go into that barn

Ponchoboy and Rangergirl rise from the ashes
From the cold river, from afar
Remember before they were born, how they
Held hands and jumped into the world
Don't go into that school

Ladybugs, pennies, notes from the dead sun eclipse
Scrape the inside of your skull for clues
All the old dreams are still there, petrified
You are a rock of ages gibbering
Don't go into that factory

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Starting LineI keep trying to move forward,
You keep holding me back.
Every time I stand up,
You pull me right back down.

I just wanna live,
And I just wanna survive.
But you keep pulling me back,
All the way back to the starting line.

All I want is to follow my dreams,
All I need is to live fast and die young.
Everything I want and need,
Is everything you take away from me.

I just wanna live,
And I just wanna survive.
But you keep pulling me back,
All the way back to the starting line.

I want love,
I want adventure,
I want some one to sweep me off my feet.
I want a life.
I want everything I can achieve.

All you do is hold me down,
H

Hard and FastSick of you not being here,
I'm so sick of wishing you were still here.
So sick of tears.

Why can't I turn off the radio!
I'm sick so sick of love songs.
So sad and slow.

I'm so sick of heartbreak,
The ache inside of my chest.
I wish it was over,
I wish we had never met.
I wish you hadn't been there that day.

Why did I have to fall,
Fall so damn hard and fast,
For a man who would play me,
Use me like a tissue before throwing me away.

Damn you too hell,
I will drag you there myself.
I hate you so much it hurts,
Although that might just be the wounds you left me.

Why can't I turn off the radio!
I'm sick so sick of love songs

HeartBreakI need you tonight,
I think of you all the time.
I only just manage to hide it.
But sometimes it shines on through.
I've tried everything to get you off my mind,
I've broken things and gotten into fights.
I don't know what it takes,
But I wish I didn't think of you.
I've tried of everything,
But it's not enough.
I can't do this any more,
I need something to chase the clouds away.
Maybe you miss me,
Maybe you don't
Maybe you re-live memories of our time together,
Maybe you don't.
When you see me smiling,
Is when you will finally know I'm okay.
But don't be deceived by my mask.
Not every smile is happy.
Sometimes they are a

Selene - Valentines GiftI never had a dream come true,
Till the day that I met you.
I wanted you to know,
I love the way you smile.
If you cried,
I'd wipe away all your tears.
If you screamed,
I'd chase away all your fears.
I will hold your hand through these years.
You have all of me.
You captivate me.
Spellbind me.
Inspire me.
One thought of you is enough to leave the rest of the world behind.
I wanted to say,
I love you and I am not afraid.
You woke me up,
Saved me from the dark.
You took me from the nothing I had become.
Your brought me home. You saved me.
I had been living a lie,
Nothing was left,
Frozen inside,
Without your touch,
Witho

JonahOh, I can't get you out of my head.
Your the constant beat inside of my head.
Your all I think of,
Your all I dream about.

One wish.
Is all I ask of this world.
One wish,
For you to be mine.

Long nights by the fire,
Cute texts that I keep forever,
And read over and over.
One wish.

Sometimes I look at your photo,
And smile at your face,
Just to remember,
The happiness you give me.

I don't have much money,
Nor a college degree.
but I have an ever loving heart,
And I wish to give it too you.

I never believed in love,
I saw it as tom foolery,
A superstition cooked up long ago
But that was all before I talked to you.

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My Heart

by *JetBlackHeartxxx, Oct 5, 2012, 12:29:41 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

My heart,
It cracks,
As some one,
Slides on out.

They don't need me no more,
I've been replaced,
The hole they left in my heart,
Is filled with lies and hidden promises.

My tears cascade,
Down my pure white cheeks,
As I feel the pain of your absence,
The destruction it's caused.

Why...
Why could you just not tell me?
I would have been angry of course,
But not at you...

Never at you...

You hid those things,
You lied to me.
I thought you were acting weird that day...
Guess it was the lies eating you away.

You do not understand...
How much I hate lies,
How much I hate myself,
For making you feel like you couldn't tell me anything.

Your choices may not have mirrored mine,
On what I would have done in your situation,
But that does not mean i would despise you,
It's your life to make your choices with.

But I guess I didn't deserve them,
Those truths churning away inside of you.
I guess I just do not deserve,
To be told the things you used to tell me in a heartbeat.

I touch my heart,
And feel it start to crack,
I guess this is how it feels,
when some one you love doesn't love you back.

My Heartby *JetBlackHeartxxx

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

©2012-2013 *JetBlackHeartxxx

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~WildFangWolf Oct 5, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

What's wrong...?

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*JetBlackHeartxxx Oct 5, 2012 Student Writer

Nothing to do with you dear.

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~WildFangWolf Oct 5, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

But something's wrong...

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*JetBlackHeartxxx Oct 5, 2012 Student Writer

Yeah...A dear friend of mine lied about and hid important things from me..

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~WildFangWolf Oct 6, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

I'm sorry...

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*JetBlackHeartxxx Oct 6, 2012 Student Writer

It's not your fault...

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~WildFangWolf Oct 6, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

But you're someone I worry about and worry for.

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*JetBlackHeartxxx Oct 6, 2012 Student Writer

There's no need..I'm always okay.

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