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Harmony

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Published: Nov 29, 2012

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Literature Text

It's been hell not having you here,
I've been missing you so bad,
And even though I ask again and again for you to be by my side,
You're still so far away.

I beg and I plead,
I ask for your love,
And though you give me as much as you can,
The love you send me has died before arrival.

I spend my days thinking of you,
My nights crying for you,
My heart beats only for you,
My smile only exists with you there.

I'm addicted to the song lyrics which describe how I feel,
Singing along to a song that's in beat with my heart,
I hope you can hear me sing,
Those sweet sweet words I long for you to hear.

I don't sing often,
And when I do it's rather bad,
But when I sing,
It's for you and all the memories we have yet to make.

I sing out to you,
In my loudest and most tuneful voice,
In the hope that in the silence that dominates my world,
I will hear your heart replying.

I hope that I will hear your heart replying,
I dream of the day when I won't have to shout for you to hear me,
I dream for the day when our hearts will be as close as they possibly could be,
Beating together in harmony.

I miss you so fucking much....
It was my suggestion to be friends, and I know it was the right thing to do...
I've gotten to good at hiding my emotions.
I smile on the outside, but in my head...every second of my god awful life...in my head i'm imagining this future, the future i live for. The future where i won't have to pretend not to care for you. Where every time i see your name, i won't have to remind myself we are just friends...That i have to be careful with what i say...
This is killing me, and it scares me to death to know that if we weren't just being friends at the moment, it would be ten times as painful.
I suppose i have to endure the pain, and get through the torture, before i'm allowed to be happy.
I love and miss you, even though i don't say it often. I miss you every second of every day, with every fiber of my being. I love you...my sweet.

(JetBlackHeartxxx translation: Most people call the person they love, 'my love'. But i call alot of people my love [everyone who watches me] and i call people honey and darling and things. But...'my sweet' is something i have never called anyone. Ever...because it's the name i've wanted to reserve, for the person i want to be with for however long i may grace the earth with my presence. 'My sweet' is the name of the one and only love i ever want to have.)