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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Ode to the boy with diamonds for eyesI think we were a collision course waiting to happen
And when I think back to the day when we first
Stumbled across one another, red sneakers hanging off gutters
Cherry cola voice overs and dilated pupils
We led one another on to believe in the night sky of connect the dot constellations

You wanted to dissect me and peer into the insides of my lungs
Only to find witches breath and dandelions
Slicing iron vowels you locked your hands in mine
And we fell into the static of dreaming disease
The operating table broke away to reveal a sky that never existed
And we couldn't help but laugh at the irony
Because wishing was never an option
The ane

Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Lost In ConfusionLost In Confusion

My mind is spinning without a rest
Emotions whirl and twirl around
A merry-go-round gaining speed
Until the world blurrs before my eyes
What's happening? What's going on?

The simplest thought slips away
Right from my mind, fading so fast
Trying to focus, I stare and stare
Until my eyes are heavy and unclear.
I don't understand, what is going on..

Emotions rise and fall again
Within the blink of an eye
I'm crying, laughing, and depressed
A roller-coaster ride that never ends
Am I losing my mind in this?

I try to close my eyes and rest
But the world spins me around
I feel like I am failing this test
Voices and noises echo

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The Worst PainHave you ever,
Had to break a heart?
Something you want to hold delicately and you know you should,
But circumstance means you just can't.

Have you ever,
Broke some ones heart,
Looked them in the eye,
And said goodbye.

Some people say,
That breaking some ones heart is the worst feeling.
Others say,
That having your own heart broken is worse.

That giving your heart away in the hope,
That you will never receive the shattered pieces,
Yet having it handed back to you,
Like it had been crushed for a thousand years.

Some say the worst pain is breaking a heart,
Some say it's having your heart broken by the one you trusted.
But I sa

If I DieIf I die,
Please don't cry.
Look up at the sky,
And say goodbye.

Close your eyes,
Raise your voice,
Kiss your fingers,
And reach up high.

If I dead and gone,
Six feet under,
Nailed in a box,
To never see tomorrow.

If I die,
Don't you dare cry.
Open your eyes,
And smile wide.

If I die,
If I fall asleep to never wake,
Don't curl up,
Don't let it hurt you.

If I die,
Please don't cry.
Look up at the sky,
And say goodbye.

Sun And The MoonI don't want to let go,
But my fingers are slipping past,
You're floating away,
Like a dream from the night before gone to rest.

You were always the love that filled my heart,
The tissue to clear away my tears,
The hand i grabbed when i was in need,
The smile that warmed my life.

And now,
Every time i close my eyes,
There you are,
Smiling at me like nothing went wrong.

Like there is no sadness.
No pain.
That the tears i try to cry don't exist,
Like this pain in my chest was a nightmare.

I can't live without you,
I just can't stand it,
A world without you,
Is a world that just doesn't spin.

But it does.
It all keeps going,

CharlieDead.

Gone.

Lifeless.

Why?!

Why did you do this to me!

You selfish,

Contradicting,

Self centered,

Obsessive,

Controlling,

BITCH.

Why?

You promised me you wouldn't leave me.

I need you.

Why did you leave me.

Why did you go.

What did i do to you,

To deserve this.

I need you Charlie.

My best friend has just died,

Gone.

I need you Charlie.

But i guess that is impossible.

Because you were the best friend.

It's kind of ironic.

I need my best friend,

To get over my best friends death.

Ice QueenI feel cold.
I feel empty.
I feel alone.
I feel dead.

I feel like I'm locked in a coffin,
I can never escape,
The world pressing down on me,
Crushing my spirit to death.

I feel like I'm bound to this pain,
No matter what i do,
Like there's some one stood out there,
Holding the key and laughing at me.

No matter what i think,
I can't change my mind,
I'm alone in this world,
I can no longer put up a fight.

Your kind words fall dead,
Your warmth just dies,
Before i can feel it's embrace,
Upon my frozen skin.

I'm dead inside,
I'm too far gone,
I've frozen shut,
All of my emotions and love.

I've no room for happiness,
In th

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Everything You Wanted

by *JetBlackHeartxxx, Dec 15, 2012, 11:45:50 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

There's one door falling closed,
Another one's flying open,
Lighting up the darkness,
In this never ending nightmare.

One more good bye,
One more quiet cry,
Is anybody out there?
Does anybody care?

Put your hand up right now,
Is all I'm waiting for.
Times breaking down,
And everyones fallen.

Is everything you wanted,
Everything i can give you?
Some people demand an answer,
Some people just don't know.

Sometimes we're holy angels,
Floating up high,
But sometimes life drags us down,
And kills our very souls.

Are you somewhere out there?
Somewhere far away,
Waiting for my smile to come,
And break all these spells.

Can i trust you with my secret,
That I'm alone.
So very alone,
In this darkened world.

There's one door falling closed,
Another one's flying open,
Lighting up the darkness,
In this never ending nightmare.

Is everything you wanted,
Everything i can give you?
Some people demand an answer,
Some people just don't know.

Everything You Wantedby *JetBlackHeartxxx

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I...really dont know if this even makes sense

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~Wintaria Dec 15, 2012 Student General Artist

Peace be with you, truly.
This poem, these poems, they're all so deep. And beautiful.

*JetBlackHeartxxx Mar 8, 2013 Student Writer

Thank you, so much

~Contradictory55 Dec 15, 2012 Student Writer

It does. For me, it feels like a cry for help, to be acknowledged even as one is rejected...
"Is everything you wanted,
Everything i can give you?" <-- this line... it's one of the most wonderful rhetorical questions I've ever heard....read...

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