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I didn't do this to hurt you,
Mum, you must believe!
I know this is strange,
But I see no other way.

18 years have been and gone,
It's been a rocky ride.
In and out of this house,
It's no longer my home.

You are my mother, my dearest mum,
But rarely were you a comfort.
As a child, I ran wild,
you dead behind the eyes.

Now I know, I understand.
Mental health is a can give you a hard time.
But as a youngster, all I knew,
Was that my mum never smiled.

I do not blame you, that I must insist,
For the tears the bruises or the even the social services visits.
But I have held my own, fought my own wars,
I cannot pretend any more.

I miss and truly love you,
But here is not my life/
I know this seems sudden,
Please, do not shout.

I've packed my bag,
Left this note,
I'm sorry but I must go.
I'll send you letters from the road.
A dust has settled on my soul,
So thin, falling like snow.
My skin, it sheds.
As another layer drifts away, there dawns a another day.

My bones they ache,
The scaffolding of my human form.
Holding strong, holding long.
How many years must I go on?

So brief my life, barely a blink,
Yet I ache, I crack and break,
It has all but drained me dry,
A zombie in disguise.

Inside this chest, beyond the flesh,
Trapped inside the chasm found,
Walls so dead, lost in time,
Hidden is my eternal life.

There I am, there I'll stay,
Waiting as my body decays,
They won't see but I shall grow,
Time can't dull the fire in my soul.
So.

This feels to me about as awkward as if I'd said I'd call and then never did, and now I'm skulking back with my tail between my legs and some flowers. If I had flowers, I'd give you them. 

I don't know how many of you even remember who I am, some may even look at my username and seriously try and remember who the heck I am. Which, is perfectly fair. I've changed a lot since anyone on here knew me, and it's been a long time (yeaaaaaaaaaaars.... yikes) since anyone on here knew me. So, I want to take this chance to introduce myself. Introduce who I am now.

Hello, my name is Sophia Ley Ashworth, it's a pleasure to meet you. I am 18 years old, and I started writing from a young age. Poetry mostly, small descriptions and stories.
I stopped writing when an important figure in my life passed away. Before then, poetry was my outlet. But I guess her passing was too much, there was too many conflicting, and strong emotions. Although gross, it was basically emotional constipation. 

But, it's been a few years. 2 years and 3 months. And, weirdly enough, the other day I started to write again. And it felt amazing, to think in rhythm and just flow my thoughts onto a page again. it's been a while, and I missed it. I missed DA. I want to start writing again, and I figured that trying to get back into DA would be a great place to start. This site, and the people in it were often the driving force that got me through the day, that got me to finish a poem and to get up in the morning. I miss it, I miss the community and I miss the friendships I made here. 

So. I'm sorry for not calling. Hopefully, I'm going to start writing again. You'll have to bear with though, I'm going to be a bit rusty. But, know that I've missed you very much.

Thank you,
Sphinx

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Sophia Ley Ashworth
Artist | Student | Literature
United Kingdom
Oh hai der c:

So, I'm from the Manchester area of England. That's the North-west part of England by the way c:
Send me a message guessing my age, go on ;3

On the 06/12/12 I lost my best friend of 15 years. 2 days after my birthday. I love her, and i will never forget her. She got me through some tough times and you will probably see mentioned of her throughout my DA.
R.I.P Charlotte(Charlie) Mary-Anne Hazel I love you.

My nicknames vary. My most common is Blackheart, Jet BlackHeart ;D My older friends know me as Mikey though, from Mikey Way (ex-My Chemical Romance, had glasses, awkward knees, nerd and wore beanies, like me.)

I'm a writer mostly, but I dabble in a bit of everything. Digital art, comic books, traditional art, poetry, stories ect. I am a musician, and I can play bass guitar, normal guitar, and piano. My main thing to post is poetry! :heart:
I'm founder of a few groups, namely:
:iconthe-unheard-poets: (Poetry)
:iconthe-unseen-artists: (All art welcome)
:iconflyingllamareligion: (A religion based on the flying llama: jetblackheartxxx.deviantart.co… )
I'm admin of a few groups too:
:iconpoem-forthe-poemless: (Poetry)
:iconartist-platform: (All art welcome)
:iconthe-voices-within: (All art, mostly poetry though)
:icons-h-support: (In support of self harm)

I help people. Anywhere, with anything. Often when a person is feeling down, I'll be there to help. But, if you dont feel like talking to me, here's some links to go to which might cheer you on a day that's just not going your way :heart:

If you ever feel disgruntled(It means sad or moody) go here: gruntle.me/

If you ever feel stressed, or like it's all getting on top of you, go here: thequietplaceproject.com/thequ…

If you ever want everything to be okay, go here: make-everything-ok.com/

If you ever need a hug, go here: thenicestplaceontheinter.net/

If you ever need to calm down due to stress or anger or anxiety, go here: www.rainymood.com/

If you're ever feeling down and need a smile, go here: cuteroulette.com/#/

If you're ever forgetting why hope is important and why smiling is important , go here: deadskarlett.deviantart.com/ar…

If you're ever feeling shitty about yourself, go here: www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~geoffo/hu…

I hope these help with your day :heart:

MCRmy for ever :heart:

I like brains....

BOO :iconboooplz: I'mma ghost c: wooooooo :iconwooooplz:

I'm bisexual, incase any of you wonder c: Came out of the closet on Valentines day of 2012 for my first girlfriend as a valentines gift as I couldn't be with her that day and I wanted to show her I was fully committed to her. Shame she dumped me a few weeks later eh? :') I've been with 2 girls in a proper relationship, both ended badly, though i am still friends with both. Been in a relationship with 4 guys over the past 4 years. I am currently single c:

I'm against homophobia, stereotypism and any kind of judgement without proper cause.

HOMOPHOBIAS GAY!!!! ~ Frank Iero :iconfrankieroapprovesplz:

I love llamas! :iconllama3dplz::iconllamajumpplz: PLZ GIVE MEH LLAMA'S :heart:

This is my new account, i used to be :iconshadowpook:

:icontheonefallenangel: has given me a trophy as I proved I cared more!!! With my equation :iconloveyouplz: x Kurt Cobain x Chuck Norris x Jimi Hendrix x Jim Morrison to the power of Kurt Cobain + Chuck Norris + Jimi Hendrix + Jim Morrison. So I won!! :D I got a trophy too, look! It's so pwetty *-* :icontrophyplz:

By the way, if I call you my love it is just what i call my watchers! Don't be scared, i'm not admitting my undying love ;3

Twitter: twitter.com/HappyClappyShit

Facebook: www.facebook.com/Jet.Shadowpoo… If you add me on here, send me a message with your username in it so i know who you are, otherwise, you will get rejected. Sorry. :heart:

Tumblr (Dark): happyclappyshit.tumblr.com/

Tumblr (Happy): ifyourehappyandyouknowitsmile.…

Well, that's all! If you want to know more, just note me and ask c:

:huggle::iconglomp2plz::iconglompplz::icongwompplz::iconglomplz::iconsuperglompplz::iconattackglompplz::iconsuperheroglompplz::hug::iconbackhug::icontardhugplz:

Love from,
JetBlackHeart
:iconblackheartplz::iconblackheartplz::iconblackheartplz:
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So.

This feels to me about as awkward as if I'd said I'd call and then never did, and now I'm skulking back with my tail between my legs and some flowers. If I had flowers, I'd give you them. 

I don't know how many of you even remember who I am, some may even look at my username and seriously try and remember who the heck I am. Which, is perfectly fair. I've changed a lot since anyone on here knew me, and it's been a long time (yeaaaaaaaaaaars.... yikes) since anyone on here knew me. So, I want to take this chance to introduce myself. Introduce who I am now.

Hello, my name is Sophia Ley Ashworth, it's a pleasure to meet you. I am 18 years old, and I started writing from a young age. Poetry mostly, small descriptions and stories.
I stopped writing when an important figure in my life passed away. Before then, poetry was my outlet. But I guess her passing was too much, there was too many conflicting, and strong emotions. Although gross, it was basically emotional constipation. 

But, it's been a few years. 2 years and 3 months. And, weirdly enough, the other day I started to write again. And it felt amazing, to think in rhythm and just flow my thoughts onto a page again. it's been a while, and I missed it. I missed DA. I want to start writing again, and I figured that trying to get back into DA would be a great place to start. This site, and the people in it were often the driving force that got me through the day, that got me to finish a poem and to get up in the morning. I miss it, I miss the community and I miss the friendships I made here. 

So. I'm sorry for not calling. Hopefully, I'm going to start writing again. You'll have to bear with though, I'm going to be a bit rusty. But, know that I've missed you very much.

Thank you,
Sphinx

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SonicUS1000 Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday. :party: :)
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Happy birthday
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Happy early birthday. :cake:
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Happy birthday!
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Happy birthday
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Happy birthday!
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TheOneFallenAngel Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday, lovely. I'm sorry I haven't been on to talk, writer's block has driven me away a bit. <:t :iconrainbowcakeplz:
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JetBlackHeartxxx Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2016  Student Writer
<3
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Thank you for the favorite:heart:
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uh... hi
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