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Hello my loves :heart:

Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan do I suck.

I love the fact that I'm still getting watches and favourites though. I haven't posted any work in AGES but damn people still favourite my stuff that's a great feeling.

Unfortunately my life has gone down hill a bit. I was off the internet for three weeks as per doctors instructions, I was only allowed back on last thursday. My depression gotten alot worse but I'm fighting through. I've also been diagnosed with something much worse that's been a shock on me. Turns out, I have schizophrenia. I don't know how to quite explain it to you, if you don't know what it means. Some of it's symptoms include hallucinations, delusions, disorganized thinking and speech, easily losing train of thought, social withdrawal, loss of motivation and judgement, having difficulty making emotional connections, paranioa, severe depression, anxiety, difficulties with long term memory and attention.

I know alot of that doesn't really sound like me, but that's because as my doctor said I have perfected tricking people into thinking I was okay. He was actually rather astounded and shocked that I hadn't been diagnosed previously on the many times my father sent me to them. If you look back at my journals they seem more or less followable, they make sense and have a few topics in each one. But you should see me write one, my jesus. I have to keep clicking up and down the page so I can add in bits. I start writing about one things and then think of another and swap further down the page or back up to where that topic is. I'm not happy to admit it but for about 3 years of my life my father had to literally force me to shower. I do have delusions, lets face it my judgement on some of the things I've done is not good. I'm paranoid all the time, I've known about my depression for years, I can never remember things and my attention span is something to be desired. It also explains my occasional and random outbursts of anger and my violent actions at times. Hopefully now that I know what it is I can learn how to live with it. There isn't really a way to cure schizophrenia.

On a happier note, I got into the college I wanted to, and I start this Thursday :) I know alot of you aren't from Britian, but at the end of our highschool years at the age of 16 we do these exams called GCSE's that determine whether we get into college and I got 4 A's 6 B's and a C :3 Which is well above average, especially since most people only come out with 9 GCSE's or less and I am coming out with 11 ^^ I'm going to be studying English Language, Psychology, Sociology and Art & Design. So hopefully I should have drawings and shizznizz to show you all soon.

I hope you're all doing GREAT :') If any of you want to speak to me more, since I seem to be so little on here, I have contact things on my profile to facebook. If you want to add me go ahead, just send me a message at the same time telling me what your DA username is so I know who you are, or you won't be added :(

Love you all!!

Sphinx (AKA JetBlackHeartxxx)

R.I.P Charlotte Mary-Anne Hazel 01/01/1997 - 06/12/12
  • Listening to: All Time Low
  • Playing: Minecraft
  • Eating: I NEED FOOD MAN
Hello my loves :heart:

Yeah. So, to start with -calmly gets down on knees, clasps hands together and looks at you-

I'M SO SORRY OKAY I REALLY AM I KNOW I KEEP POSTING JOURNALS SAYING I'M GOING TO BE MORE ACTIVE AND WRITE BUT OMGEE YOU HAVE NO IDEA IT'S SO DIFFICULT AND LIFE IS ACTUALLY BUSY AND SHIT AND LIKE THERE IS NO EXSCUSE I'M SO SORRY MY LOVES YOU'RE ALL FAB I MISS YOU ALL GREATLY I WILL MAKE IT UP TO YOU SOMEHOW OKAY I'M SORRY </3 </3 -cries-

Ahem.

Yeah I've been busy sorry about that >_> Basically, I posted that journal all like "Yeah I'm gonna get all over this cos my life is starting to quieten down again wew!" and then my life exploded again Yay!

Yeah. A week after I posted that status, my grandma died (May she rest in peace), then I had the funeral which involved me seeing my father again after like four months and all that which was pretty traumatic.

To make it worse my father told me of her passing over EFFING FACEBOOK. "Hey Soph, how you doing? Just thought you would like to know, your Grandma passed away yesterday."
I'm not even shitting you that's how he told me. THE FUCK

Okay, so yeah that happened. Just as my GCSE's started as well, fun fun. Like, I found this out the night before my first exam. Goodie. So after that I had about 1-2 months of just exams one after the other, which ended on the 13th of June. Then I had prom and I got into a relationship with this girl called Rachel. (Photos will ensue.) And then I had three birthdays in my family, my uncle died a few weeks ago as well after a long fight with the big C (we're dropping like flies) and I started working as well. And then my relationship ended too, which is just so much fun. Crush hard on a girl for 9 months, get the girl, she dumps you. Fun fun.

So basically, I have been REALLY busy. And then ya know, I'm a teenage girl too so the emotions have been wrecking havoc too which is fun.

I will be trying to be more active. Like, every time I open a tab in my browser it's DA that loads so that should help. But yes, sorry!!! I still love you guys! And I'll be posting lots of pictures of the past few months so you can see me. I've changed a bit, hair and such. I hope you're all doing great, and anyone who wants to talk to me can. Just send me a note, or on my profile I have links to facebook and such.

I love you guys!

Sphinx (A.K.A JetBlackHeartxxx)

R.I.P Charlotte Mary-Anne Hazel 01/01/97 - 06/12/12 Gone But Never Forgotten :heart:

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My premium was bought for me by :iconicequeenazure: She bought me one even before herself, and now she's not here. She's left DA, probably from the look of it, to never return. I made her a promise when she gave me this premium. That i would use the poll to give to people. To give points, and premiums to artists who need them. Your points will go to a good cause :heart: No matter what the amount, i will give you a watch, and 3 llama's(unless i have already given you a llama via one of my accounts, in which case i will give you as many as i can with the accounts i have.) So please, please, donate :heart:

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Sophia Ley Ashworth
Artist | Student | Literature
United Kingdom
Oh hai der c:

So, I'm from the Manchester area of England. That's the North-west part of England by the way c:
Send me a message guessing my age, go on ;3

On the 06/12/12 I lost my best friend of 15 years. 2 days after my birthday. I love her, and i will never forget her. She got me through some tough times and you will probably see mentioned of her throughout my DA.
R.I.P Charlotte(Charlie) Mary-Anne Hazel I love you.

My nicknames vary. My most common is Blackheart, Jet BlackHeart ;D My older friends know me as Mikey though, from Mikey Way (ex-My Chemical Romance, had glasses, awkward knees, nerd and wore beanies, like me.)

I'm a writer mostly, but I dabble in a bit of everything. Digital art, comic books, traditional art, poetry, stories ect. I am a musician, and I can play bass guitar, normal guitar, and piano. My main thing to post is poetry! :heart:
I'm founder of a few groups, namely:
:iconthe-unheard-poets: (Poetry)
:iconthe-unseen-artists: (All art welcome)
:iconflyingllamareligion: (A religion based on the flying llama: jetblackheartxxx.deviantart.co… )
I'm admin of a few groups too:
:iconpoem-forthe-poemless: (Poetry)
:iconartist-platform: (All art welcome)
:iconthe-voices-within: (All art, mostly poetry though)
:icons-h-support: (In support of self harm)

I help people. Anywhere, with anything. Often when a person is feeling down, I'll be there to help. But, if you dont feel like talking to me, here's some links to go to which might cheer you on a day that's just not going your way :heart:

If you ever feel disgruntled(It means sad or moody) go here: gruntle.me/

If you ever feel stressed, or like it's all getting on top of you, go here: thequietplaceproject.com/thequ…

If you ever want everything to be okay, go here: make-everything-ok.com/

If you ever need a hug, go here: thenicestplaceontheinter.net/

If you ever need to calm down due to stress or anger or anxiety, go here: www.rainymood.com/

If you're ever feeling down and need a smile, go here: cuteroulette.com/#/

If you're ever forgetting why hope is important and why smiling is important , go here: deadskarlett.deviantart.com/ar…

If you're ever feeling shitty about yourself, go here: www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~geoffo/hu…

I hope these help with your day :heart:

MCRmy for ever :heart:

I like brains....

BOO :iconboooplz: I'mma ghost c: wooooooo :iconwooooplz:

I'm bisexual, incase any of you wonder c: Came out of the closet on Valentines day of 2012 for my first girlfriend as a valentines gift as I couldn't be with her that day and I wanted to show her I was fully committed to her. Shame she dumped me a few weeks later eh? :') I've been with 2 girls in a proper relationship, both ended badly, though i am still friends with both. Been in a relationship with 4 guys over the past 4 years. I am currently single c:

I'm against homophobia, stereotypism and any kind of judgement without proper cause.

HOMOPHOBIAS GAY!!!! ~ Frank Iero :iconfrankieroapprovesplz:

I love llamas! :iconllama3dplz::iconllamajumpplz: PLZ GIVE MEH LLAMA'S :heart:

This is my new account, i used to be :iconshadowpook:

:icontheonefallenangel: has given me a trophy as I proved I cared more!!! With my equation :iconloveyouplz: x Kurt Cobain x Chuck Norris x Jimi Hendrix x Jim Morrison to the power of Kurt Cobain + Chuck Norris + Jimi Hendrix + Jim Morrison. So I won!! :D I got a trophy too, look! It's so pwetty *-* :icontrophyplz:

By the way, if I call you my love it is just what i call my watchers! Don't be scared, i'm not admitting my undying love ;3

Twitter: twitter.com/HappyClappyShit

Facebook: www.facebook.com/Jet.Shadowpoo… If you add me on here, send me a message with your username in it so i know who you are, otherwise, you will get rejected. Sorry. :heart:

Tumblr (Dark): happyclappyshit.tumblr.com/

Tumblr (Happy): ifyourehappyandyouknowitsmile.…

Well, that's all! If you want to know more, just note me and ask c:

:huggle::iconglomp2plz::iconglompplz::icongwompplz::iconglomplz::iconsuperglompplz::iconattackglompplz::iconsuperheroglompplz::hug::iconbackhug::icontardhugplz:

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JetBlackHeart
:iconblackheartplz::iconblackheartplz::iconblackheartplz:
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  • Listening to: Secondhand Serenade
Hello my loves :heart:

Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan do I suck.

I love the fact that I'm still getting watches and favourites though. I haven't posted any work in AGES but damn people still favourite my stuff that's a great feeling.

Unfortunately my life has gone down hill a bit. I was off the internet for three weeks as per doctors instructions, I was only allowed back on last thursday. My depression gotten alot worse but I'm fighting through. I've also been diagnosed with something much worse that's been a shock on me. Turns out, I have schizophrenia. I don't know how to quite explain it to you, if you don't know what it means. Some of it's symptoms include hallucinations, delusions, disorganized thinking and speech, easily losing train of thought, social withdrawal, loss of motivation and judgement, having difficulty making emotional connections, paranioa, severe depression, anxiety, difficulties with long term memory and attention.

I know alot of that doesn't really sound like me, but that's because as my doctor said I have perfected tricking people into thinking I was okay. He was actually rather astounded and shocked that I hadn't been diagnosed previously on the many times my father sent me to them. If you look back at my journals they seem more or less followable, they make sense and have a few topics in each one. But you should see me write one, my jesus. I have to keep clicking up and down the page so I can add in bits. I start writing about one things and then think of another and swap further down the page or back up to where that topic is. I'm not happy to admit it but for about 3 years of my life my father had to literally force me to shower. I do have delusions, lets face it my judgement on some of the things I've done is not good. I'm paranoid all the time, I've known about my depression for years, I can never remember things and my attention span is something to be desired. It also explains my occasional and random outbursts of anger and my violent actions at times. Hopefully now that I know what it is I can learn how to live with it. There isn't really a way to cure schizophrenia.

On a happier note, I got into the college I wanted to, and I start this Thursday :) I know alot of you aren't from Britian, but at the end of our highschool years at the age of 16 we do these exams called GCSE's that determine whether we get into college and I got 4 A's 6 B's and a C :3 Which is well above average, especially since most people only come out with 9 GCSE's or less and I am coming out with 11 ^^ I'm going to be studying English Language, Psychology, Sociology and Art & Design. So hopefully I should have drawings and shizznizz to show you all soon.

I hope you're all doing GREAT :') If any of you want to speak to me more, since I seem to be so little on here, I have contact things on my profile to facebook. If you want to add me go ahead, just send me a message at the same time telling me what your DA username is so I know who you are, or you won't be added :(

Love you all!!

Sphinx (AKA JetBlackHeartxxx)

R.I.P Charlotte Mary-Anne Hazel 01/01/1997 - 06/12/12

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Aryiea Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2014
Thank you for the favorite:heart:
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dark-things-and-coke Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014
uh... hi
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JetBlackHeartxxx Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Student Writer
Hey :)
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always-ending-story Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you so much for +fav! ♥
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JetBlackHeartxxx Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Student Writer
My pleasure! :heart:
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innoctemn Featured By Owner May 2, 2014
thankyou for the fave.:huggle:
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JetBlackHeartxxx Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Student Writer
My pleasure :') :huggle:
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DarcyM123 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014
Hope you are doing well little lady. You deserve to be happy. Give us a sign!
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JetBlackHeartxxx Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2014  Student Writer
I danced around a fire singing as loud as I could in old African, I don't know if you saw that sign? ahahahaha

You too deserve to be happy! I am trying my damndest. I'm here if you want to talk whenever <3
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DarcyM123 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2014
Glad to hear from you.  Keep up the good work missy.
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